卓文萱一秒也好
我关上了门最后一次听你说我们
熟悉变陌生把我往记忆里扔
我应该习惯你离去的眼神
才能让失去你变的更完整
窗外的街灯还在努力掩饰着早晨
我的叹息成真了整夜的苦闷
我该努力习惯这样的气氛
才发现失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来你只是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

清晨的街灯唤开了城市中的心门
我的等待成真了整夜的苦闷
我努力在你的回忆里狂奔
才了解失去了爱不用再等
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只能让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好

多想再一次紧紧的拥抱
就算给我一秒也好
一秒可以给多少我都想要
我知道我的一切你已不想要
即使在乎也只让你想逃
我不相信这全是种煎熬
原来爱你是那么难预料
早已看穿没有我想要的好
我的等待换不到你拥抱
只好让回忆短暂的炫耀
原来任性对彼此都不好
让回忆继续反复炫耀
原来失去对彼此都不好

oh.. ya i forgotten to mention that...
my parents and godma accommeto go for exam :)
so sweet ~ lovely...XD
i think its raining season now....esp evening/ at night
thunder & lightning,sky's really dark...
as usual...piano exam tomorrow :)
concentrating on practicals now
sch loads increasing...really alot...
let me... see... collate ...
- 1 solo presentation on news this wed
- 1 report due mon
- 1 h/w due on next mon
- 1 drawing due on tue
- 1 solo presenation, 10 mins...have to prepare own slides
- 1 project on rooftop greening
- 1 h/w due wed
hm... should be almost all.? alot still hehs

finally a load off my mind :)
had theory exam today ...
but there's still lots of other things...

new nice songs ! :)

yoga's album out today :)


genie's new album( jing xuan ji) out today too :)

Another stuff added to my To Buy List !
guess what ?!
it's e Ukimono !
i want to buy that :P
it's $300 + ... gosh...
will i get to buy it ???

finally home... at 7.30
bus was really packed...
was so hungry.. both sides of me gt ppl sit...
so did not realli adjust properly...
stucked at that position for mins...
uncomfortable ...
when waiting for 62
sky is already dark...
feeling wind too
then buy food back :)
finally makan... till now.. haven bathe :(
haven take out contact lens...
and my show is like starting.. in 15 mins!
gosh... did not manage my time properly
i'm feelin so full...
NO sch Tmr :)

lesson yesterday wasn't that good i guess :(
lesson is at 3 today :) going out at about 12.30
going to look at my plants before going for lecture :)
don't know how are they
i want to improve my english !
yesterday lesson is like english lesson
writing introduction... difficult ...
i've practically given everything back to teachers :(
so sorry...

totally.. mesmerized by.............kim bum ! haha

bused home with esther..
had floristry today :) gt B+ for my centrepeice
happy hahaXD
then had a landscape.... module
designing..
today had ' drawing lessons'
similar to art lesson... rmb
last time.. tt mr ng oso gt ask us to draw our hands...
draw... tone( dark till light) ... hatching..
sketching dots.. those stuffs...
it's so similar to last time...
XD dunno to be happy or sad...
another solo presentation on 24 nov
topic: thing i like...
hmmm wad a wide topic haha
well... quite fast i've tought abt a topic :)
ask esther to guess... v. simple...
but she took quite long.. gt giv her clue oso.. haha

went down to bugis, brasbesah... after sch
to get some art stuffs...
kinda ex.. but e realli ex one is nt here yet..
during e term break then will need to get it.. tt's $4 + for a marker
and we need AFEW ...
today got abt 5 pens,.. cost $10 +
gosh...
then makan wif frens.. bused back...
from bugis to serangoon then.. change a bus at hougang
then finally home sweet home :)
tired... oh... saw the seedlings that was planted on lsat week
it's been a week.. it's grown till abt.. 5 cm? shoots now...
and gt some.. seeds in e incubator...
busy.. have to go back to check on them everyday ...
tomorrow floristry... and landscape design...

kim bum :) :) :)
he can sing well .. and knows how to play piano tooooo

aarggh.. early in e mornin..
.i'm just so pissed off with this com .!everything's nt in place...
everyday come back home.. he'll DEFINITELY be in this seat
and use it... wth.. sucker !!! gosh... just totally hate it
can't configer out everything here... wad's wrong?
he just don't give others a chance to use it...
even when he goes to bathe.. this com is still his.. cos his prgramme is running
SELFISH ass...!!!
ggrrrr
my blood's boiling !!!

i dreamt that... someone asked to be break up hei family
as in.. disband hei family :(
y is there such a dream...dun like...

have quite a few projectS in hand... imagine it's onli the 1st week
there's gonna surely be more of them coming along
today was a long day kindoff ,but... gt 4 hrs of break haha
went pizza hut with classmates... wanted to go pool but
v. crowded... business is so good thr
9-5 today... after tt went to green hse to check on e seeds tt we sow on mon
my grp de has sprout :) fast haha
it differs for different seeds, dfferent plant :)
lesson on 2pm tmr,till 5... gt to head to lib after tt
to find some books on designing...

been seeing him this few days... he said hi first all e times
saw him today. think he din see me tough
felt regret,bad nt saying hi to him :(
sad

A SOLO presentation in 2 weeks time !!!
omg... with.. clear articulation..
good command in english..
speak in confidence...
attire like how we are going for a interview...
eye contact...
etc & Etc & ETC !!!
how am i able to do so??? i realli need help
gosh!
bused wif est today... to and fro :)
gt companion it's great...
sorethroat...
but i'm still having snacks :)
since i'm nt realli gg to sing... haha XD
chilli... spicy...
tmr have gt 4 hrs of bREAk before gt 2 hrs of lessson,
teahcer on mc... so canceled lesson.. fri practical lesson canceled too :)
think gg to sch at 2 on fri bah... if nt wrong
class gg pizza hut... then backed for another 2 hrs of lesson
and... this 2 lesson is the same lecturer... but diff lesson...
haizx...
no handsome teachers ..opppss hahahahahahahahahXD

well welll welll...
there's seems to be EVen Longer list i have -the to buy list..
excluding those previously stuffs i said, those bags shoes...
NOW there's just a list of things i need to get...
marker.. pen... colourpencils... and pen itself gt so much diff de...
oh gosh.. it just spells..money needed to have to increase...
luckily.. afew a FEW seemingly.. 1/2/3stuffs i've gt em...
but .. there's still jsut things to buy ... and
gt to borrow books on Design too ... busy... busy.. busy...

so sorry :( to JL and Jess
din go bugis wif them
i wanted to go, i've gt things to buytoo... but

ended sch abt 11... then went pool wif classmates
1 fren wanted to stay to train.. brush up her skills
since she alone so i agreed to stay wif her :)
at least jl have jess as accom jess gt jl as accom ... so nv go
and.. had Floristry lesson... did centrepeice.. brouhgt it home...
so bulky.. cant possibly bring this to bugis.. imagine squeezing e train
wif this pot ... -.- so decide nt to go meet em .. feeling so sry
hope they dun mind hehs
pool today was... dunno? hehs i oso dun realli know how play de...
kinda crowded thr...then during a game.. gt a ball so far...
even someone from next table come help me...aaww .. felt so malu * hmmm
at least because tt person is my fren's fren ...but still feel so funny
i can't stop laughing hahaXD thankhim for helping me
opps... i realise tt i duno whether gt thank him a not
tt person seems quite friendly hahXD
then kevin and his frens went thr too.. but tables booked.. so i d=think they din get to play
sth i did :) scored 78... luckily.. but everyone gt quite high marks

lots of foodie to go :) wif besties

some people's life are full of interesting ... wonderful... stuffs
closely packed but enriching.. happy times
which marks gd memories... realised... y life seems to be... kind off i dunno
living a day by a day,as in... i do have a time-table... gt things that had to be done, hopefully if i know clearly wad's e 'itinery' for tt day, wad has to be completed...
other than that
it would be home for me, but do i have tt extra energy to oso hang out wif frens? seems that people usually at this age do always hang out wif frens after sch... on weekends
well... i dun think this applies to me.. sounds sad rite?
colourful memories =)
getting along realli well with ppl =)
it seems simple when said but hard to realise ......
reality is ______ gd/bad
depends how one determines

well.. feeling kinda bored rather...
but i guess i shuold grasp this opportunity to actually rest
for as much as i can
cos... i would have to prepare... get ready for the long... tiring journey ahead
well
isit because rest too much? i doubt so. should say have nt rest enough XD
for somewad reason. internet seems t be laggging
can't finish watchin my show
feel rather pissed when it loads slowly... haha
yaya... better dun grumble
at least i get to watch rite... hehs ...

first day of sch was okie..
reached sch quite early though...
at 8am !
even though lesson was 9
haizx... teacher lah... e-mail v. late tt lesson changed to 10am
ggrrr
had to wait for 1 more hr...
to pracical lesson.. is on growning plants :)
fun :)
hydro plant.. well buts everyday will have to go back to hcheck on e plants :(
tiring but...
i think it'll be worthwhile after this whole thing end..
cos fget to see the process... and all
v. hands on..
next lesson was drawing....
haizx...
draw draw...
many art stuffs to buy
ex ex ex :(
tmr lesson at 8am
lecture somemore...
:( yawns

sch's starting tomorrow
it marks the end of slacking :(
it marks the end of resting:(
it marks the end of FREE time :(
it marks the end of idle-ing :(
hahxD
must think positive! :)
its the starting of new sem :)
its the start of new projects :)
its the start of new modules :)
it's the start of absorbing new knowledge :)
it's the start of having enriching timetable :)
its the start of useful time :)

hehs XD maybe thinking like this will make life easier ? right? hopefully
pray hard hahaxD

sharing a post from elvin ng ... found it ... realistic ~

Accomodate:
One of the advantages of going out alone is that you do not have to accomodate others. You do not have to smile, you do not have to make small talk, you do not have to spare a thought for others. And that was what I experienced when I went to the movies myself, went to the night market myself, went to the pub to listen to the live band myself, went to eat chicken rice balls myself. All the time for yourself. All focus on yourself. Finding yourself. Almost an indulgence. It was a good feeling. Did it once. Did it again. Will continue to do so from time to time.
Why? Because sometimes you are so tired of smiling and trying to be nice to others when others do not try to smile or be nice to you. Not a saint but you know you have tried to be good to others but others do not seem to try to be good to you; in fact, they begin to think you are a pushover. When every good seems to be forgotten and each bad remembered. When a sheet of white paper with a black dot is noticed only for its black dot. When whatever credit you thought you might have built up counts for nothing really.
I really don’t want to be calculative. But I really don’t want to be too accomodating either. How many can you accomodate in your life? How many would you like to accomodate in your life? Seriously, people who matter. I don’t want to be too accomodating. I’ll keep this at the back of my head. And continue to be the same, the way I deem right.

learning to let go of hatred :)
guess i've alrdy let go of it a lil by lil :)

i've realised... gt quite some stuffs that i want to buy
- bag
- shorts
- pants
- jeans
- blouse
- tees
- dress( 1 will do haha)
- shoes
- sandals
nt enough money
well... i din see any that i like alot anyway :(

supposely going K with est but canceled
supposely meeting JL today but canceled
well..feeling tired...
:)
sch in 3 days time

smiling from the heart :) love this

ytd went sushi :)
oh i'm practically in love with mango avocado temaki
ohh loves LOVes my new love haha
well... nth much to talk abt this hahaxD
my com's been haveing some problems, problem with the switch, can't on it

holidays been passing quickly, how i hope this wouldn't end, hahaXD but it's impossible, and time to learn new stuffs, add more stuffs to my life... add more knowledge to myself :) thinking so possitively right? well... maybe i'm trying to be positive rather than negative. well if being positive for 1 sec is still better than negative for 1 sec, at least there's this 1 sec of hapiness in my life right? i'm nt hoping much, just hope that life would be simplier, well human.. as they grow older things just get complicated... so it's also good to be a child at heart at times :) simple life, simple thinking, rather than complicated thinking makes life stressful & complicated
simple is nice :) keep things simple :) let nature take its course :)
though certain things in life we do have to fight it for ourself, unless ur life's that good that you can have everything u want in your hands.
And learn to cherish things :)
keep things simple as it is, but of course always strive for the better ...

why isn't it uploaded yet ?!
:( :( :( :( :( :( :(
anticipating for it lotz ...

yeah... sushi later :) hahahahaha XD

still waiting for... autumn's concerto
waiting waiting & waiting!
it's so long
its nt uploaded yet

shopped:)
din get any thing...
dunno why there isn't anything tt i realli realli like nowadays
isit bcos i gt a lil bit of money to buy?
last time... when shoped.. will have things i like so much
but no money to buy
now... haizx...
at least gt a few pending...
but then i decided not too
well at least trip is nt wasted :D
est and wh did bought some clothings :)
i went for hair cut at chapter 2 though haha
quite like :)
shampoo at salon alwys so nice :)
if nt wanted to cut at my hse here de salon ...

a pleasant trip :)

backed :) frm compass
met up wif han jess JL
so long nv see han le miss her :D haha
han rush thr from sch :)
had dinner at subway :) yumsyums
and... i think i've made a record haha
i finished my drink :)
even though last to finish but at least i finished it by myself
if nt everytime oso they help me clear :P thx them
and its a big cup
hehs.. was 'urgent' hahsxD have to go toilet... cos so much water
sat there chat haha
saw ms chan
saw james zhao lun ...
haha called him uncle james last time when he's still in nvss
times flies ... we've alrdy graduated for nearly a yr :)
oh ya... gave han her present
hope she'll like it...
hmm its similar as last yr haha
and i gave them cookies :) haha
and.. at subway bought e meal and chose cookies too -.-
cookies everywhr..
my voice alrdy change...
adn i keep eating such food..
dunno when will it be back to normal..
my voice.. and i'm like gg K this week wif est...
oh gosh...

CCOOOOKKIIEEESSSS :) :) :)

下一站,幸福
呼叫大明星
privileged
sch's starting... piano exams comming...
and.. i've gt 3 SHOWs tt i'm interested!!!

cough cough cough...
fri after returning home... felt tired..
uncomfortable declare sick again
was flu on wed.. thurs was okie.. alil cough
fri night.. aaarrgh gosh...
feeling cold
yeah alil feverish
suckish ...
felt better todya though but who knows...
cough was worse today .. -.-
tmr.. piano lesson resuming ... hmmm
i've been slacking away
i know i should give myself a big tight slap to wake Up !!!

went out today :)
fialllyyyyyy ssiizzlleerrr
hahaxD
hehs
han din go.. busy...
met up wif jess and JL hehs
i train back myself... :(
they had gt work...
they should be working now...
hmm... was like.. 3+ ? dun rmb...
whoa... gt seat :P so tired... hahaxD

went rm .. wif est and wh
for long john b'fast
love it :)
- cheese
- turkey bacon
- egg
- hot tea warms e heart haha
then went...
playground and fitness
- see SAW
hahaxD fun fun FUN
everthough ... nearly gt accidents :P hahXD
so funny.. .est
and.. our butts.. haahaxD kana hurt

exhausted
but still happy

looking forward to a sumptous relaxing b'fast
:)

my phone's been hanging Up LOTS reacently !!!
:( gosh :(
realli mad with it...