' why do some ppl only look at e 'surface''?
'when ppl are bias do they know it?...tt they are bias?'
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those Qs up there...
it kinda shows what i'm feeling right now
kinda sad recently...
pissed off actually...
have some kinda unhapeiness stuff wif my family...
is it stupid of me to be unhappy...
and dun sae it out...
but if i sae it out..it will only get worse
i will get ticked off even more
...
just too bad... tt i'm nt lyk their precious son ...
gd in studies...
now..i find tt he's nt simple
after sch...when i come back..
he will be there sitting on tt com chair playing
frm 3-9...
abt tt...depends on wad time his FOOD come back...
remembering when i as then...everything i settle on my own
even now...when there's 2 person at home...
my parents actually come home earlier...
SHE sae' i want to spend more time wtf ur '
yah right...
when i was in sec1 -3...
they are mostly back late...
isn't tt worse...1 person alone at home...
at this quiet place...
oh...their son... o damn act loh...
before they come back he will log off the com...as if he nv play
yah right lyk shit...
when they are home...he will sae his h/w alot...
complain abt sch stuffs...
lyk no one has it loh...
lyk the things he suffer only he suffer before..no one suffer it before
so...in my parents eyes... he shld be hardworking...clever..boy
apple in their eyes...
is being independent gd? solving prob all by urself...
but it seems tt it is nt do so gd afterall... others will hack care u?
i don't know...frm what i see is...
they will give a lil more freedom...
but...have another type of expectations... i guess
um... '最坚强的人也希望有一双能依靠的翅膀'
gueesss it is quite true tt no matter how strong a person is
they will still hope to have someone to lean on
um...
sad...
unfair...
why is it tt on me ... SHE will find excuses to stop things tt iwant
but to things tt my bro wan,
she will then sae 'times change'
yah... except MY world... it is 'times change'
!!! pissed off
if she can compare me to others... maybe even to ppl in times tt nv change
then why can't she treat my bro the same way lyk she did to me...
recently she said' aiyah , u know guys this age'
wth...
i've been trying hard not to scold vulgar...
i think she will be the one who make me scold
but she always sae...she's very fair...
is it so?
tt's y i sae...'do bias ppl knoe they are bias'
or is it only to console me...
toobad... i dont nid those CONSOLES...
the socalled hypocrite words to me...
they only know wad gd stuffs my bro did...
simply...'looking at the surface'
tt's y recently..feeling wierd...
all my grievances...
poured out...but nt all
it will gonna be so long then...